Between Master And Disciples

Having left my rich home and beloved family members since childhood, I have gone through many hardships in my life. I didn't even shed a single tear when a doctor said that I was seriously ill. I called myself a 'tough woman'.

I went to the Hawaii 4-Day Retreat after initiation. That was the first time that I had ever participated in a retreat with Master. In just a few days' time, my relationship with Master had become so deep that it was as if She was my best friend and my closest family member.

On the last day of the retreat, I returned to my tent at midnight, after the magnificent ceremony where Master had been awarded the World Peace Award and honored with a Ching Hai Day. I thought about the next day when we would have to take down our tents and go our separate ways. It seemed as though we would not have another chance to see Master.

In Germany, I had to study and work hard at the same time to earn my living. The difficulties with time and money would not allow me to go overseas that often. After this separation, I did not know when I would be able to see Master again. When I thought about this, I, the 'tough woman,' was feeling so desperately sad that tears flowed non-stop like pearls running off a broken string. Apart from feeling sad, I was also worried that Master might go back to God's home sooner than me, leaving me behind alone, toppling and falling on the long, long path of practice full of upheavals.

Just as I was so sad and could not fall asleep, and also was crying like mad, suddenly I heard the consoling voice of Master's manifestation body in the air, "Don't be like this! Don't be too attached to my physical body. Inside us, we are one with each other. We cannot be separated."

I cried to Her manifested body and said, "I know the inner Master is always with me; but since I have this body, I also have the human emotions. I very much want to see Your physical body again, but I don't know when I will be able to."

At that time, Master's manifestation body said, "All right, we still have a chance." Hearing the promise of Master's manifestation body, I fell asleep immediately.

Early in the morning, I was awakened from my deep sleep, "Master has come. Go quickly to the meditation hall!" I immediately got up and ran to the meditation hall. When I arrived, She had already started Her enlightening talk. Although I did not understand English and did not know what She was saying, tears kept streaming down my face and my heart was full of love and gratitude.

After the talk, Master drove away in Her little car. The car was closely followed by some people. When it passed by me, suddenly there was a gap between it and the group of people behind. I naturally stepped in to join the group, and luckily, was the one in the lead following Her. I was weeping, wiping my tears without a word and running behind Her mini car. At that time, Master was driving slowly and She turned Her head and said to me, "It's all right! It's all right! Don't be like this! I won't leave so soon. There is still some time and I will take good care of myself."

I wiped my tears and nodded my head. I was also very surprised. Before that, I thought only the inner Master knew what I was thinking. I had never imagined that the physical Master was so omnipotent that there is nothing that She does not know.

After that, whenever I had the chance to see Master and shake hands with Her, I could not help but say, "Master, please do take good care of Yourself!" I always prayed inside to God to help me to practice diligently, to give less trouble to Master's physical body; and prayed to Him to bless Her health and asked Her to take good care of Herself!