I love writing very much and regard it as my highest ideal. When I
first began writing, I was deeply influenced by the genius painter
Vincent Van Gogh, an artist of paramount talent to me. My heart then
fell into a state of desperation and darkness. Writing was the
eternal star that lit up my life, and I considered it a boat that
ferried me across the ocean of life. As I didn't know when my life
would end, I wrote incessantly to resist the coming of death.
My Wife's Brother Was The Harbinger
One summer several years ago, my wife's brother came to visit me. He
said, "meditation may benefit your writing and thinking, or even
change the way you see the world. Practice the Quan Yin Method!" He
also gave me a photo of Master and the Key of Immediate enlightenment
sample booklet.
Master's book solved many of the doubts that I had about the world,
and opened a window for me to understand the world and the universe.
The light of wisdom penetrated my gloomy heart. I was really grateful
to the Creator for giving me the chance to know Supreme Master Ching Hai and
the Quan Yin Method.
I was determined to become a vegetarian, change my life, and offer
myself to the great power that creates the world. I was certain that
Supreme Master Ching Hai was the greatest example of wisdom.
Finally, the long awaited initiation came. The intense longing for the
Truth made me feel extremely grateful for this particular moment.
However, my expectations of having a miraculous experience at the
initiation made it hard for me to maintain an ordinary mind. I
experienced nothing after the initiation, and was feeling very lost.
As so many people described the visions and inner sounds that they
perceived, I thought that it must be my own problem; perhaps I was
not concentrated enough.